GETTING IN TO THE SWING OF THINGS

WELLI HAVE BEEN BACK ABOUT THREE WEEKS NOW AND AM STILL ADJUSTING. GOING BACK TO WORK HAS BEEN WONDERFUL. INSTEAD OF GOING BACK TO MY SCHOOL I HAVE DECIDED TO BE AN IN-HOME SITTER FOR A FAMILY THAT I HAVE KNOW FOR A FEW YEARS AND NEEDED HELP. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE DOING THIS. NO BOSSES TO ANSWER TO, NO SCHEDULING CONFLICTS NOTHING. I PROVIDE CARE FOR THEIR ALMOST 5 MONTH OLD, 3 YEAR OLD AND 6 YEAR OLD. I ACTUALLY MET THEM WHEN THEIR OLDEST WAS 2!!!! AMAZING, THE RELATIONSHIPS AND FRIENDSHIPS THAT FORM IN A CHILD CARE CENTER. THIS FAMILY HAS ALWAYS BEEN SPECIAL TO ME AND IT JUST MAKES ME FEEL SO GOOD THAT I COULD HELP THEM OUT INTHEIR TIME OF NEED AND THEY ARE ALSO HELPING ME.

LIVING WITH MOM IS GOING TO TAKE SOME GETTING USED TO. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE CHEAP RENT AND THE FACT THAT THERE IS USUALLY A HOME COOKED MEAL LIKE EVREYNIGHT. IT IS JUST WITH LEAVING MY BDROOM SUIT IN NC, I AM LITERALLY LIVING OUT OF A SUITCASE. I DID MAKE A BED BY PUSHING TWO TWIN BEDS TOGETHER. I ONLY SLEEP THERE WHEN PETE COMES AND STAYS THOUGH. OTHER THAN THAT I STAY IN MY YOUNGER SISTER, CECILIA'S ROOM.

SOCO HAS PRETTY MUCH ADJUSTED VERY WELL. SHE HAS ALWAYS LOVED VISITING BUD. THEY STILL RUN AND CHASE EACH OTHER AND BARK AND GROWL AND RECENTLY THE NEW THING IS THAT SHE WILL FETCH TENNIS BALLS. WHEN SHE GETS IT SHE WILL TEASE BUD WITH IT!! I HAVE TO PUT UP A VIDEO IT IS JUST THE CUTEST THING!!!

SOME FAMILY THINK THAT I DO NOT VISIT OR CALL ENOUGH. I KNOW THAT I DO NOT AND I KEEP USING THE EXCUSE THAT I AM STILL ADJUSTING. WHICH REALLY IS NOT AN EXCUSE. HONESTLY, T IS THE TRUTH. I GOT A LIL BEHIND ONSOME OF MY BILLS WHILE I WAS GONE AND HAVE TO CATCH UP ON THEM. SO PRETTY MUCH I ONLY DRIVE TO AND FROM WORK AND THAT IS IT IN AN EFFORT TO CONSERVE FUEL. IT IS ALL ABOUT BUDGETING AT THIS POINT AND I THINK THAT I AM OFF TO THE RIGHT START.

WELL, DONE RAMBLING FOR NOW I THINK IF I CAN THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE THEN I WILL ADD LATER. BUH BYE NOW!!

DRAMA

WELL.... I DO NOT KNOW WHERE TO START... I HAVE BEEN SO STRESSED OUT LATELY ABOUT THIS MOVE THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN KEEPING UP WITH THIS BLOG. IF YOU KNOW ME YOU KNOW THAT I WILL TRY JUST ABOUT ANYTHING ONCE. I DID AND I DID NOT SUCCEED. AFTER PUTTING IN MULTIPLE APPLICATIONS FOR JOBS HERE IN NC IT HAS BEEN DETERMINED THAT I HAVE TO MOVE HOME. I CAN NOT RISK LOSING MY VEHICLE AND GOING BACK IN TO DEBT BY STAYING HERE AND WAITING. MY FAMILY IS SUPER STOKED!! I AM GOING TO HAVE TO LIVE IN MY MOMS BASEMENT WHCIH HAS THE PERKS (CCHHHHHEEEEAAAAAPPPP RENT). IT KINDA SUCKS THAT I WILL NOT HAVE MY OWN PLACE BUT I FIGURED THAT THIS WILL GIVE ME THE OPPORTUNITY TO SAVE. I HAVE ALREADY SPOKE TO MY DAD ABOUT THIS B/C OF COURSE I WOULD NEVER EVER DO ANYTHING THAT HE IS NOT COMFORTABLE WITH AND HE LET ME KNOW THAT HE IS OK WITH IT AND COMPLETELY UNDERSTANDS WHY I HAVE TO DO IT. WELL UNTIL NEXTIME FOLKS!!! I AM GOING TO GO GET ON MY FB ACCT NOW AND THEN PLAY SOME GAMES ON THE NET!!

MY HEART

ON THE WAY HOME FROM RUNNING ERRANDS THIS MORNING, I CAM ACCROSS AN OLD MAN WITH TWO DOGS (ONE WAS A BOSTON LIKE SOCO). JIMMY INFORMED ME THAT THIS MAN SITS ON THE EXIT LIKE ALMOST EVERYDAY AND COLLECTS MONEY. I KNOW THAT I HAVE SEEN ALL THE SCAMS ON TV WHERE THEY LEAVE THE SPOT, GET IN TO A NICE CAR AND DRIVE AWAY. WELL THIS JUST BREAKS MY HEART, IF I HAD IT MY WAY I WOULD PICK UP ALL THE STRAY HOMELESS PEOPLE AND TAKE THIEM HOME WITH ME. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IT IS BUT WHEN I SEE THEM IT MAKES ME SICK TO MY STOMACH AND I WANT TO DO SOMETHING TO HELP THEM. POOR GUY AND HIS PUPPS TOO!!! IS THIS WEIRD OR ARE THERE OTHER PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT FEEL THE SAME AS I DO??

RAIN RAIN GO AWAY

I GUESS I SHOULDN'T HAVE CALLED DAD AND JOKED ABOUT HIS FEAR OF THUNDERSTORMS THE OTHER NIGHT. WE HAVE GOTTEN THUNDERSTORMS THIS EVENING AND LAST NIGHT. AND IT NEVER FAILS THAT IT HAPPENS AS SOON AS I AM GETTING READY TO GO RELAX IN THE POOL. TODAY, THERE WAS PEA SIZED HAIL RIGHT ALONG WITH IT!! THE THUNDER TOTTALLY FREAKS OUT SOCO, SHE GOES FROM THE FRONT DOOR TO THE BACK DOOR THEN BACK AGAIN. HELP ME!! I WANT TO GET RID OF ALL THIS DAMN RAIN!!

SWIMMING

WELL, I SWAM IN THE POOL TODAY AND IT WAS SO MUCH FUN, THE WATER WAS A BIT COLD, I GUESS ONE MORE DAY WITH THE COVER ON IT WILL DO IT GOOD. JIMMY,PETE, AND RICKY ARE GOING TO BUILD THE DECK AROUND IT TOMORROW. PETE AND JIMMY GOT IN BUT WERE OUT QUICKLY BECAUSE IT WAS "COLD"!!!! I FOR ONE LOVED IT. NOW, IF I COULD JUST FIGURE OUT A WAY TO GET MY LEGS A BIT MORE TAN IT WOULD BE EVEN BETTER. I AM THINKING ALOT MORE TIME ON THE RAFT AND I WILL BE GOOD BUT, THEY SAY FAT IS HARDER TO TAN THAN MUSCLE.....I'M SCREWED!!!!!!

DAMN BUGS

I WAS JUST OUTSIDE FOR 2 MINUTES... I SWEAR ONLY 2 MINUTES, CAME INSIDE AND I HAVE 6 BUG BITES, (YEAH I COUNTED THEM) I JUST PRINTED COUPONS FOR THE NEW OFF CLIP ON REPELLENT. IF YOU GO TO THEIR WEBSITE THEY HAVE ABUY ONE GET ONE OFFER!!! I REALLY HOPE THAT IT WORKS!!!!!!!!! WILL LET YA'LL KNOW!

THE POOL

MAN, AM I GREATFUL TO HAVE HUNG WITH KAREN AND KIM IN THE SUMMER MONTHS WHILE THEY TOOK CARE OF THE POOL..... I HAD TO SHOW THE GUYS HOW TO BACKWASH IT AND THEN THE CORRECT WAY TO HOOK UP THE VACCUM!! BUT, ALL IN ALL IT WAS FUN, I VACCUMED AND HUNG OUT FOR A WHILE BUT IT WAS REALLY COLD, WE PUT THE CHLORINE IN SO NOW I GOTTA WAIT TIL I GET IN IT!!!

YIPPEE!!

WELL, PETE AND JIMMY FINALLY GOT THE POOL TOGETHER. NOT MUCH JUST 15 FT AROUND AND 4 FT DEEP BUT DAMN, WITH ALL THIS HEAT, I AM DEFINATELY GOING TO USE IT WHEN I AM NOT HANGING OUT BY THE LAKE. THE ATER GUY IS ON THE WAY AND SOON I WILL BE BLOGGING FROM THE POOL. OH, AND DID I MENTION THATTHIS WILL BE SOCO'S FIRST TRY AT IT!!! I HOPE SHE DOES WELL!!

HUH, WONDER WHAT SHE WOULD THINK.....

SO I WAS JUST SITTING HERE GETTING MY PROFILE TOGETHER AND CAME ACCROSS A PICTURE FROM THE CRUISE I TOOK A FEW YEARS AGO. IN THE PIC IS ME MY TWO COUSINS AND MY AUNT BARB (RIP). IT JUST MADE ME THINK ABOUT WHAT AUNT BARBIE WOULD HAVE SAID TO ME WHEN I DECIDED TO MOVE TO NC. SHE WAS NOT A SHY PERSON AND WAS ALWAYS WILLING AND ABLE TO LEND HER EAR AND HER OPINION. EVEN IF U DIDN'T WANT IT. SHE LOST HER BATTLE WITH CERVICAL CANCER IN SEPTEMBER OF 2009. SHE WAS MY ROCK. I LOVED HER SO MUCH AND STILL SAY THAT SHE WAS WAY TOO YOUNG TO GO. WE ALL REALLY MISS HER AND THERE IS NOT A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT SHE IS NOT IN MY THOUGHTS. BE IT A SONG, A LOOK ON SOMEONES FACE OR A SOUND. I KNOW THAT SHE IS WITH ME BUT I DO WONDER IF SHE WOULDN'T BE KICKING MY ASS RIGHT NOW FOR LEAVING!!!!

A NEW BEGINNING?

THIS PAST WEEK I MOVED OVER 300 MILES AWAY FROM MY FAMILY. I DID IT FOR A FEW REASONS. I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO LIVE IN ANOTHER STATE. MOST OF MY FAMILY STILL LIVES IN MD WITHIN TWENTY MINUTES OF EACH OTHER. I THOUGHT THAT IT WOULD BE A "FUN" THING TO DO. BUBBA(MY BF) HAD BEEN UNEMPLOYED SINCE SEPTEMBER AND HIS BEST FRIEND OFFERED HIM A JOB DOWN IN NC. SO I SAID WHY THE HELL NOT. ALOT OF MY FAMILY HAVE BEGUN TAKING BETS ON WHEN I WILL RETURN. I GO BACK IN 3 WKS TO HELP MY SISTER WITH MY NEICES BIRTHDAY AND MY MOM WITH HER DOGS WHILE SHE IS ON VACA! THEN I HAVE TO GET FOCUSED AND FIND A JOB. SO I GUESS THIS SHOULD BE INTERESTING. I WONDER WHO WILL READ THIS. HMMM I DUNNO. AS FOR THE JOB THING I AM GOING TO A KINDERCARE DOWN HERE TO SEE IF THEY HAVE ANYTHING AVAILABLE. IF NOT THERE ARE A LOT OF OTHER BRANDS OF CHILD CARE HERE SO I KNOW THAT WITH MY EXPERIENCE I SHOULD NOT HAVE ANY PROBLEMS FINDING ONE. SO OK THAT IS ENOUGH FOR NOW, I WIL LCHAT AGAIN LATER!!

WHY I STARTED THIS

I HAVE ALWAYS ATTEMPTED TO KEEP A JOURNAL. WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I KEPT EVERYTHING ON A CALENDAR NAD AM SAD TO SAY THAT THROUGH THE YEARS I LOST IT. THEN I MOVED TO JOURNALS, I STILL HAVE A FEW OF THEM BUT JUST DON'T SEEK TO MAKE TIME TO WRITE IN THEM. I HAVE ALWAYS READ ONLINE BLOGS AND THOUGHT HMMMM, MAYBE I SHOULD DO IT. SO HERE GOES NOTHING!!!